his name is zayn, zayn malik

paper towns - john green

"The way I figure it, everyone gets a miracle. Like, I will probably never be struck by lightning, or win a Nobel Prize, or become the dictator of a small nation in the Pacific Islands, or contract terminal ear cancer, or spontaneously combust. But if you consider all the unlikely things together, at least one of them will probably happen to each of us. I could have seen it rain frogs. I could have stepped foot on Mars. I could have been eaten by a whale. I could have married the queen of England or survived months at sea. But my miracle was different. My miracle was this: out of all the houses in all the subdivisions in all of Florida, I ended up living next door to Margo Roth Spiegelma "


"Standing before this building, I learn something about fear. I learn that it is not the idle fantasies of someone who maybe wants something important to happen to him, even if the important thing is horrible. It is not the disgust of seeing a dead stranger, and not the breathlessness of hearing a shotgun pumped outside of Becca Arrington's house. This cannot be addressed by breathing exercises. This fear bears no analogy to any fear I knew before. This is the basest of all possible emotions, the feeling that was with us before we existed, before this building existed, before the earth existed. This is the fear that made fish crawl out onto dry land and evolve lungs, the fear that teaches us to run, the fear that makes us bury our dead."


"Here's what's not beautiful about it: from here, you can't see the rust or the cracked paint or whatever, but you can tell what the place really is. You see how fake it all is. It's not even hard enough to be made out of plastic. It's a paper town. I mean look at it, Q: look at all those cul-de-sacs, those streets that turn in on themselves, all the houses that were built to fall apart. All those paper people living in their paper houses, burning the future to stay warm. All the paper kids drinking beer some bum bought for them at the paper convenience store. Everyone demented with the mania of owning things. All the things paper-thin and paper-frail. And all the people, too. I've lived here for eighteen years and I have never once in my life come across anyone who cares about anything that matters." 



"You listen to people so that you can imagine them, and you hear all the terrible and wonderful things people do to themselves and to one another, but in the end the listening exposes you even more than it exposes the people you're trying to listen to."


"I stand in this parking lot, realizing that I've never been this far from home, and here is this girl I love and cannot follow. I hope this is the hero's errand, because not following her is the hardest thing I've ever done."

my blackberry's skin

i feel so blessed

writing here, with this great mixtape from 8track, lying on my bed, the color of my room, the weather, everything.
just perfect combination..

thanks god i still could open my eyes this morning
thanks for giving them to me,i have great people around me
thanks for this air so i could breath and live
thanks for every single thing you gave for me
thanks for everything, every things
thanks god, thanks god

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friends or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by.

So take a lot of pictures, laugh a lot, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. You just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend in need, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, LIVE IN THE MOMENT because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back

watercolor

semuanya make cat air, belepotan ya uhuhuhuh iya emang amatir :| maaf ya :|

OID

lets play !

nemu games ini nih, cobain ah~

your photos right here right now

sorry warnanya aneh, udah malem ini -_-

What is your idea of perfect happiness?
seeing my parents smile caused of me, the way i felt when its raining outside and i'm sitting in my room with nice music and good book, oh and some cookies


What is your greatest fear?
seeing my parents disapointed caused of me, the-you-know-what-thing-which-we-cant-see, loosing the people i love


What is the trait you most deplore in yourself?
hmm my too-much-thinking habit

What is your greatest extravagance?

books, clothes

On what occasion do you lie?
when i need to, white lies isnt that bad right? 


What do you dislike most about your appearance?
my forehead -_____-


Which words or phrases do you overuse?
shhhit


Which talent would you like to have?
wish i could play guitar, or other music instrument, it'll be cool i think


What is the quality you most like in a man?
gentle, honest, lovable, responsible 


What is it that you most dislike?
cat


What is your motto?

no expectation, no disappointment

i call these, beauty

i ain't own any of these photos, i just like'em, georgeous !!

sometimes the lyrics of the song which i heard are related to what i feel ..

indeed

FOKUS!!

FOKUS IKHA!!!

BELAJAR, JANGAN ONLINE MULU!!

OID

ada hal buruk dan baik hari ini, buruk dulu kali ya, gue malah jalan2 sama okta debby, mengingat senen gue UAS, UAS men.. dan gue beli buku. malah hampir beli 2 buku, satu lagi itu 183 itulooh, yang kematian konglomerat prancis itu, udah bawa ke kasir nih dua duanya, akhirnya gue cuma beli satu, gue kan mau hemat. harusnya gak beli apa apa :"( tadi juga hampir beli buku sketsa baru.. yang lama udah tinggal 5 lembar :(  tapi gajadi..
hal baik nya yaaa setelah sekian lama akhirnya gue ketemu sama mereka <3 oktaresa ku dan debby ku <3 kangen sekali ({}) udah ah segitu aja, buaayy :D

struggle

i hate my self for always being like this, even just a little thing can ruin my day, my mood, there'll always something i'm thinking of, i always worried about everything, everything man, this is sick, this damn thought still repeating in my mind like a song, really2 fuckinannoying. my brain maybe already broke inside my head caused by all of this stupid thought.

nyantei dikit bisa gak kha? 

relax, take it easy~

makan buku

all of these books will be my best friend for the next couple weeks until the final exam..

ketika kesetiaan diuji

to the point, kali ini gue mau nulis tentang cinta dua hati, eaa hahaha yaa kayanya itu lagi banyak dirasain sama temen2 gue. mereka udh punya pacar, LDR-an, dan naksir lagi sama orang yang ada di deketnya. dan orang itu pun nge respon. dan apa yang terjadi ? sang pacar pun ditinggal demi si gebetan baru. apakah worth it? menurut gue sih, engga

sayang banget. udah pacaran lama, semua hilang karna sekedar perasaan suka sesaat. dan nanti kalo sang pacar yang udah jadi mantan itu udh bener2 pergi dan pacaran sama orang lain, emang rela? rela gak? 

kalo iya yaa berarti keputusan lo bener, kalo engga yaa.. selamat menyesal deh..

biasanya kalo udah jadian sama si gebetan itu perasaan sukanya hilang. karna emang sekedar doang. dan itu yang terjadi di temen gue. suka nya hilang, dan diasangat menyesal udh mutusin pacar lamanya. 

peneysalan emang datengnya belakangan.

jangan sia siain orang yang sayang saama lo. lo baru bakalan ngerasa nyesel kalo dia pergi.kadang2 rasa sayang itu gak terlalu kerasa kalo udh terlalu dekat. karna rasa itu udh dalem banget. kadang2 rasanya jadi malah seakan2 gak ada lagi. padahal sebenernya ada. jangan sampe salah milih.. kalo orng yang lo sayang udh pergi mau nangispingsan juga dia gabakaln balik.. 

inget lagi kenapa awalnya lo bisa sayang, bisa suka. trus lo mutusin buat LDR, itu bukan keputusan gampang. kesetiaan diuji. kalo lo udh mau LDR, brarti lo yakin sama pasangan lo. gak rugi apa semuanya hilang cuma karna perasaan sesaat yang akhirnya cuma bikin nyesel?

jadi AYO KITA SETIA :D

ketika bolos sekolah

lukisan pertama make kanvas, dan hasilnya berantakan sekali :|

hello march

hai, udh bulan baru lagi ya, 12 hari lagi gue usek, 16 april nyusul UN, hhh, dan gue sama sekali belum siap
abis un tamat sma (amin ya allah amin ya rabbal alamin) gue lanjutin kuliah ke jakarta, di dkv binus.
cuma tinggal 2 bulan lagi gue bisa ngerasain masa2 sma. sedih. hampir setiap hari gue sama temen2 sekelas ngomongin ini. jadi keinget kmaren pas gue cerita2 sama cotok. "tinggal 2 bulan lagi kita kaya gini ni ka, itu juga gak full. tinggal 2 bulan lagi. abis itu kuliah. kaya gimana tu ya, gak kebayang" ya gitulah. kita cerita2 tentang masa depan. akhir2 ini mungkin itu jadi topik paling hangat buat anak kelas 12.
tiap kali gue liat temen2 gue. pas lagi becanda2. lagi ngumpul rame2 depan kelas, gue selalu kepikiran. bentar lagi doang. pas lagi nyanyi2 pake gitar rame2,ngeliatin mreka becanda2 kaya anak sd, impit impitan, robek2in bajulah, coret2 jilbablah, cotok yang antik. lawakan2 si randa, si rafiq yang bikin emosi kalo lagi panas2nya malah memonopoli ac. semua pada bilang, nanti pasti  kangen suasana begini..

sebenernya gue pengen cepet2 tamat dan ke jakarta. tapi gue juga gamau pisah sama mereka..